Hazaron kwhahishein aisi....

हज़ारों ख्वाहिशें ऐसी की हर ख्वाहिश पे दम निकले
बहुत निकले मेरे अरमान लेकिन फिर भी कम निकले

मोहब्बत में नहीं हैं फ़र्क़ जीने और मरने का
उसी को देख कर जीते हैं जिस काफ़िर पे दम निकले

डरे क्यों मेरा क़ातिल क्या रहेगा उसकी गर्दन पर
वो खून, जो चश्म-ए-तर से उम्र भर यूँ दम-ब-दम निकले

निकलना खुल्द से आदम का सुनते आये हैं लेकिन
बहुत बेआबरू होकर तेरे कुचे से हम निकले

हुई जिनसे तवक्को खस्तगी की दाद पाने की
वो हमसे भी ज्यादा ख़स्त-ए-तेघ-ए-सितम निकले

खुदा के वास्ते परदा ना काबे से उठा ज़ालिम
कहीं ऐसा ना हो याँ भी वही काफ़िर सनम निकले

कहाँ मयखाने का दरवाज़ा 'ग़ालिब' और कहाँ वाइज़
पर इतना जानते हैं कल वो जाता था के हम निकले

Facing Reality?

I hate it when people say things like “face the reality”. It always sound to me as “Bow to mediocrity”. Shallow, very shallow.
Those who say it, if started reflecting back on their own life will be scared of it.
It’s you who are living a rotten and sick life and accepting everything according to traditions or society.
Sometimes, I get the feeling that everyone is aware of it, but they are too deep in the shit and too scared or maybe too egoistic of their masked life to accept it.
This is what I have to say to all of you:
Mind your “cooked and on the platter” reality and let me create my own.
If that requires scarring of my heart in the process, so be it. I am beyond the realms of afraid and you have not even started to face your fears.

Please… Mind your own business.
Thank You

Life is hard. Really??

Many people complain that life is hard.
I completely disagree with them.
Life has always been simple and unbiased with every human being.
It's the insecurities, ego, prejudices, stereotypical attitude, judements others carry and last but not the least - society which make everyday of a human being hard.
Each and everyday....
So what the human being should do?
The answer is - Choose with free will.
Yes... Choose to fight.
Choose to ignore them.
Choose to stay happy and in a good mood.
Choose to be humble.
Choose to never stop being kind.
Choose to have faith in the divine love.
Choose LOVE.

Power of words

Sometimes, a simple sentence can make all the ghosts of the past jump back on you and haunt you in such a manner that it shook the self confidence you built in past 4 years, to the brink of shattering.

Being Home Alone

I was very excited about the notion of staying home alone. In fact... I looked at the whole concept with rose colored glasses.

But... Honestly... I found it a really sucky experience on weekdays. There are virtually so many things or systems which lives and breathes in a house. No matter how many times you turn your eyes away, or try to mentally ignore them... They are right there in front of you. Eventually, you have to look at them and give into them because you are also got used to these systems.
I was expecting that by staying alone, i will get more close to my own self and will discover my spiritual side more clearly.

Since Monday, i've been playing many roles of bartan wali, kapde dhone wali, khana banane wali, press wali and wht not. I am just so not me and eagerly awaiting for weekend to meet myself back again.

Hats off to those who are doing it with ease. I am still learning this art....

I have observed

As a child, though the memories are not that vivid. I remember, that i was the kid who never given a chance to have her say. In the crowd of so many older cousins... My voice always get unheard.
The one question always stayed like a companion to me in such meetings - Why they don't listen to me.
Thankfully after my personal discovery of comic books in their houses, i found an alternate route to keep me busy and happy.

Time flows, and i became a teenager. Interest in comics were gone. But the problem of voicing my opinion was still avid.
That question came back to haunt me. And though the question remained unanswered, apart from my normal boring life... I developed a hobby.

Instead of taking parts in coversarion as speakers, i choose to be the listener... And this lead to me to start observing people.
The hobby was self-entertaining... And i started enjoying more alone and with myself.

The hobby became a part of my life and, by the help of some words i read on Internet(i am still bad when it comes to use right words to pass right message), I am writing down some of my observations of human behavior:

Kids:
- A NO said, actually means a YES
- A YES said, somtimes actually means a NO
- A fruit/ chocolate asked to be shared, involve holding out hands with item towards you, when actually they are trying to hold back.
- The seniors in the gang, providing words of wisdom to youngers are just as dumb and clueless as the juniors.
- An increase in height is not directly proportional to maturity.

Now grown ups... Full of quirks and ego:

Please note, the first three points from kids section implies here too.

- A genuine smile comes only from those who genuinely like you. They foremost are parents, then siblings and finally some handful of friends.
- Some smiles are for the sake of selfishness - either because you are a teammate and smarter then them. Or because you work at a place where they can send their college kids for internship or job. (please add more example according to your exp)
- Some smiles... No matter how fake can tell the owner is sad.
- Not everyone who talks with sugar sweetness is god's angel. They most probably are devil's assistance.
- Not everyone who is harsh to you is your enemy, they can be the best guide you can ever get in your life.
- Don't ever trust a person who tells you something and asks you to never tell it to anybody. If they can't keep a secret... They obviously can't keep yours. Or they are just trying to spread a bad rumor.
- Those who comments (esp women) and judges anyone on their clothes .. that too seriously... They are biggest crap mentality. You won't learn anything in their company.
- Some truth spoken are biased, and hence they loose their credibility of being a truth.

The reason why i don't speak much is because there is enough to be heard even in the lack of words.
Silence has became my best friend. :-)

Experience - Silence for Dignity

Sometimes silence is necessary to maintain the dignity and respect of a relationship.

Observation - Conversation

The day you start conversing with inner self, is the day you will lose interest in other people's business.